The series reminded me of my very personal experiences. I somehow feel to be the combination of both Mae and George. How? Mae is much needed. And George is surrounded by those mean "friends".

I left my hometown about 4 years ago. In a new city, with everything new, I tried to stay connected to my old life - those friends, those habits, basically everything I can. But things can not always be that ideal. Trying to hold on to every person around me made me really hard. I had to tolerate their bad habits, their judgement, and even sometimes discrimination. Until today, I am still doing those things, trying to please others. I know that's not a great way to let others know me. I keep on putting others feel good as the first principle to communicate with others. That's bad, not only for me but for them.

Maybe someday, or starting today, I should stand up and defend myself, and my values. It's not necessarily intensive as what George does in the show. I can explore a new way, my way.

As for the part like Mae, there's too much to say. The writing is superb for effectively showing how Mae is dependent on George. I am insecure in almost all my relationships, while most of them suck. I have taken considerable time in figuring out the relationship. Do those guys fancy me, or do they merely treat me like a sex toy, a method to kill time? I always need some confirmation, and I mean it it's always. I am afraid the status is not synchronised with the other. I may make some move far beyond. I may take the other my whole world. I may, just like Mae, get addicted to the other. Is that good? After the show, I am still confused. Those questions always pop up in my mind. Will he still pay attention to me after he has completely got me? Will he still enjoy my terrible jokes? Am I still making him comfortable? Will I get abandoned one day? I get addicted because of my lack of confidence, our difference and my bad memories, maybe.

In the series, Mae relapses. Will I relapse just like her over and over? Let's see.

Look, I ain't interested
         in being tough.

 Making other people feel small.
 That's your idea of being a man.

     But some other people...

 ..they taught me that it's much
 harder making someone feel big

         and worthwhile.

              Loved.

   And you've never done that,

 cos you ain't got the strength.

        And for 28 years,
    neither have I, but now...

 The reason me and Whitney never got
     married, Dad, is because...

    	 ..is because...

      ..is because I'm gay.

It was my second time to watch The Blonde One (Un Rubio). Last year on 4th February, I watched it for the first time and wrote down those words - 'Some people are just too popular.'

The story happens between Gabriel, often called Gabo, and his coworker Juan. Everything that happens there is just like your daily life, with all those commutes, work, those smiles and eye contacts that they try to conceal. The director, Marco Berger, tried one step further in two men's relationship from simple seduction to a more intense sexual engagement.

Juan is pretty typical and swings between both ways. I feel somehow he is that kind of person who refuses definitions. But I reckon this is one method that he tries to avoid those conflicts, which makes a complicated relationship into a simple practice in daily life.

Gabo has, on the contrary, not many words. I have to say the actor Gaston Re, who plays Gabo, is brilliant. His face, especially the eyes, convey emotions, desire, jealous, frustration and pain. Gabo doesn't say too much, but you feel for him.

The relationship itself is just another clíche love story about a man who loves another man who is unwilling to come out and only maintain this relationship in their love nest. It's just so annoying. But in queer love, you can't always expect those sweet stories happening on those straight couples. You may sometimes really worry about losing your mates. Juan, at the start of his relationship with Gabo, stills goes out with the girl. And he tells Gabo ruthlessly - 'You have your kid. You have your life. And I have mine. I don't want to be stared at outside. That is it. We wake up with each other. We go home and have each other's company. It can't be better. ' He also tells Gabo, 'Don't make you like my girlfriend. I don't have to explain anything to you.' His words are achingly painful. The only reaction Gabo may give is continuous tears.

Gabo is a rather shy person. He doesn't have much to say. But you won't feel it's hard to get to know him. The story presents yarning Gabo's delicate inner emotion so fully. Gabo is in a chaotic situation. On the one hand, he's longing for more, while on the other, he has to fight against those aching pains from all Juan's incidents.

Go back to the word - popular. Besides Juan, Gabo has nearly no friends. The living room fills with the pensive looks of Juan's friends. Everyone seems under too much pressure, and life is not easy for any of them. Among them, Gabo is always in silence. If I were him, I would be embarrassed to be with those chatty friends.

It is Gabo. He is not living an easy life but makes no fuss. He doesn't have too much to say but has an emotional heart. He has never thought to fight back. I don't think it's weak, since you just become blind when you are in love. Luckily, in the hear-warming end, Juan doesn't let him down.

Humans are complicated. We have too much to worry about. We deal with our crush in different ways. Every relationship has a unique story, and commitment may help it go further. I don't want my future to be another fantasy. Will Gabo and Juan's story be one?

I initially give this series three stars. However, to some extent, some part of this young man's life is what I long for.

Still that Luca Guadagnino, in that Italy. There are too many nearly identical items calling your memory back to that summer in CMBYN. The lens is beautiful, the music is just in the way that needs. It's just another story that happened simultaneously there but was too different.

From the very beginning, I was hoping for a  love story of two men, Fraser and the major. It was such a disappointment for me when I didn't see much of this storyline. And I even feel bored somehow, because what those young people do is just a puzzle to me. I have never been in that kind of environment. I don’t know but the relationship between the main character’s family is quite weird. He slaps his mother's face, shouts at her, and pulls her hair. There is literally no backstory to explain this. The boy is so fucking rich and has no fucking behaviours and as the commander of the base, her mother seems to have nothing to do with her own child. He is extremely cringed the whole time. As for me, in no circumstance, I'll deliberately leave the refrigerator's door open. Other actors sometimes do things for no reason. SO WEIRD!!!

But I know ultimately, it is just not my life. It's a big world. Different people express their feelings in a completely different way. Luca just magnifies those emotions dramatically with carefully chosen music.

I doubted whether it's necessary to make this series so long as it could be done as another movie. But I don't blame the length of it. It just happens spontaneously without any interfere. You may never reach that level in reality. The fictional drama gives you the ability to wonder about the value of your life, the things you have never thought about in real life. The freedom of a young adolescent that some may blame for the wildness. Who doesn’t want to spend a stupid night as Fraser does with Jonathan?

The families of Cait (or Harper) and Fraser are chaotic, really. But they are definitely not basic. There are too many compromises and issues that lying too long and are unsolvable. Like Jenny says, "I forget who I am". After all those years, it's really hard to be who you are in the uncertainty those years. At last, I don't think it's hard to imagine why Fraser is so eccentric.

I have to say the last episode is the most peaceful and cheerful, while the kiss between Cait and Fraser is beyond expected. Without the restrain of their families, they literally can be who they are. They laugh. They kiss every several arches. They run on the road, between those Italian colourful walls. They are rude to the strangers on the road. They truly let the birds keep in their minds so long fly. The emotions are so delicate and sometimes fragile as the way they deal with the death of their friend.

To me, especially the time amid a world pandemic, the show is a delight. We are in uncertainty right now, to the U.S. but also the world. It's the back theme of the series back in 2016. Who knows things don't get any better till today. I am sure everyone must wanna try something different beyond the general moral code. But for most, I included, there are too many need to be considered. I don't know. But someday, I must give it a go.

May there be peace in our world.